5th Commandment: Honor your father and mother
Since I was just a kid, my dad always used to beat me up. And there I started to think of getting away from home. Hmm..yes home. Actually I don’t think that as a “home”. ‘Coz I know that a home compose of a happy family. So I guess you get what I mean.
It’s been 2 years that I’m away from home. Away from my father. Since my mom and I moved in Manila, we seldom communicate with him. It’s our chance to get away. Get away from a broken home. A misery life.
Last Christmas (since it’s a season of love), I texted him that I will send him money for his medicines. However, I wasn’t able to send the money due to some valid reasons. So, today is his birthday. I know he’s upset, ‘coz he thought I didn’t remember his birthday. I’m confused. My conscience is bugging me. I don’t know if I’m going to greet him or something. It’s just, when he felt that I forgive him, he’ll grab the chance to be with us (which I don’t want to happen). Am I a bad daughter?
It’s just that I don’t want my mom to suffer(again) and so am I. We suffered for several years with him, but now I want to forgive him whether he changed or not. BUT, I’m still not ready for letting him come into our life. Together with my mom, we’re having a better and peaceful life now. (Hope you understand the feeling)
He’s been a bad husband and a father. But somehow, there’s still goodness on him. I know he’s sick and he needs moral and financial support. BUT, he has his own family now. With his ”mistress” and kids. My goodness, I really don’t know what to do. My conscience keeps on bugging me! 
My Online Shopping Alternative
I’m thinking of buying a birthday gift for my boyfriend (even though we’re not in good terms) but instead of looking for material stuffs, I thought of buying Enchanted Kingdom tickets so it’ll be unique and special. Well, I hope he’ll appreciate the effort. So I look for sites that sell tickets for Enchanted Kingdom. Since it’s only local my first choice is Sulit.com but I think it’s pretty populated and quite unsecured. So I choose olx.com. I look for Classified Ads about selling tickets. And yes, I stumble upon a nice ad. It’s only 300 pesos. It’s pretty cheap and affordable. In olx no need to use a lot of navigations to search, it has a lot of simple options that you’ll be redirected to what you really want. So it’s fast and easy. I just hope that I made the right thing. Treat him to Enchanted and have fun. (Sigh)
Just information for my fellow online shoppers, OLX can also be a good alternative. Whether you’re in Metro like in Makati or in rural areas you can buy and sell stuffs in OLX, like for sale in Makati, the available rent space or the available hotels. If you’re looking for private or commercial spaces like office space or even houses, there are lots of stuffs you can choose.
Wish me luck guys! Hope the tickets will be a good luck.
When it’s getting bitter
Our 1 year and 4 month relationship became bitter and bitter everyday. It’s cold and dull. No more “I love you”, no more “I missed you”, no more sweet nothings. However, more fights more bitterness, more hurtful words and actions. I don’t know if how we should surpass this stage. I’m tired of arguments and I hope he’s tired too. (Sigh). I hate him for not talking to me for 4 days. I hate him for hurting me (emotionally). I hate him because I can’t stop myself from being the one who contact him. I hate him for being stubborn. But what I really hate most is myself. I guess our relationship is getting worse and I just hope that everything’s going to be fine.
CMS (Content Management System)
As I have mentioned on my previous post about changing the Wordpress Theme, I forgot to mention that Wordpress is one of the Open Source Content Management System. To explain further, CMS (Content Management System) is a platform where you can manage and control all data on your website including pages, photos, posts, etc. If a blogger does not have an extensive knowledge in website building, CMS is a big help. It’s not necessary to master all advance html and css codes if you will use CMS.
There are lots of open source content management systems you could choose from. But the most recommended for beginners is Wordpress. Few examples are Joomla, Drupal, and Xoops.
Through CMS, bloggers or website owners can also control their SEO (Search Engine Optimization). You can handle the tags, the title of your site, can also create pages which is also search engine optimized and a lot lot more!
My Christmas Gift
I just want to show off my boyfriend’s gift for Christmas. It’s a mug, with portrait of bees. (Well, just the two of us can understand the meaning of that.) 
It’s not that expensive, but I know it’s heartily given. He knows that I like mugs so I guess that’s why he bought it.