Peek On My Closet

After seeing the news this morning about the Vizconde Massacre case against Hubert Webb I realize that Justice in the Philippines is dreadful. It’s getting worse and only a miracle could change this kind of system.

The issue is not about the release of the accused neither the loss of Lauro Vizconde but is about the grimy Government system. If Webb found to be NOT guilty of the crime and who’s responsible for the massacre?

We know that our country has been proven Corrupt but not to the point that people can no longer trust the Government officials/agencies such as Philippine National Police, etc.. If this how the dirty the scheme plays can you imagine how many people being imprisoned that has been found or “alleged” guilty well in fact they’re innocent of the accuse?

I’m not pretty sure though but what if these officials in the Government making up stories and framed people just to show to the public that they have solved the case?!

It’s really true that money can buy everything (ANYTHING!! Including conscience and dignity). It’s the wealth that evolves the world especially in this country. For this aspect, sometimes I feel ashamed that I’m part of this atrocious government. Justice in this country is useless without money and power. Well, God is still there watching us and time will come that the evil ones will be punished.

Simplicity in some ways can at times blunt and not so appealing (in my own opinion) depending on the way a woman carries the ‘simplicity’ in her that she may look like gorgeous or hideous in the eyes of the people around her. But as for me, sometimes being too plain and straightforward can be boring.

I was raised in an environment where wearing fashionable clothes, setting make up and having lots of hairstyles does not exist. Tee and jeans are my always getaway wardrobe plus the never ending tied hair with a ponytail which becomes my trademark. Since then, I used to do the usual routine until such time that I have my hair re-bonded (straightened) and had a stylish haircut. To cut the story short, I changed a bit on my fashion style. I become more smart and yet simple looking. I learned to put on face powder, lip gloss and a bit of blush on if there’s a special event. As well as changed how I dress up. I did not transform into a very fashionable look because there is always simplicity inside of me. (Perhaps that’s the reason why my boyfriend gets attracted to me. Charing!)

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I don’t know what’s wrong with me today. It’s just that 6 hours of nap is not enough to catch up a lot of stress at work. Since we are preparing for Friday’s event (HR Christmas Party) we have to go home late so we can practice on our presentation. Around 7PM I left office and while at the FX I felt really tired and sleepy as well, but then I managed to be awake until I got home. And so after 3 hours of travel, that was around 10PM, ate dinner and then slept for like 5-6 hours. The loud alarm clock woke me up at 4AM and it felt bad because my body seems to have more rest and I “HAVE” to get up and get ready for work today. Huh! I’m really tired! Living in Manila is harder than I thought.

Since I’m not in the mood to mingle today, I prefer to stay in my workstation and face my computer the whole day. But unfortunately, staying in front of my PC in such a long time make me crazy! I’m sleepy, and over stressed. My introvert side conquers me and I don’t know if I could overcome that now. I thought a sip of warm coffee (or a shot of espresso) and lighting a cig might have helped me BUT unfortunately, I still have this bad feeling. I don’t know how to explain how bad it is but I just want to know what and how can I make this a beautiful day.

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The pressure is on! Last week, it was announced by our company that we will be having a Christmas party at Dusit Thani Hotel with the theme “Black and White Party”. My first impression was (0_0) Oh darn! Expenses again! As what I have written in my previous post “Christmas is coming” I’m still struggling on my financial problems now and here comes another outflow of money. As far as my bank account is concerned, I have to budget my money for my upcoming bills. Sad to say, it’s obligatory that I should attend that party and have to be well dressed (huh sometimes being part of HR community is really tough).

Thanks to Leah! (My”Kuripot” buddy) LOL. Leah told me to visit ebay.ph to look for cheap vintage dress. She bought one for like 25 PHP plus the shipping fee worth 60 PHP! I heard of ebay before and I thought it’s not legit or something but then after some sharing from Leah, it won’t hurt if I try. I registered to that online shopping store and hola! Ready to bid and buy!

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It’s merely half of December and yet I really feel the spirit of Christmas. Oh, according to news last night, Philippines experienced cold weather since the temperature dropped to 20 degree Celsius. According to their research it’s the coldest temperature we ever had this year. (Aha!) That’s why I felt it’s almost Christmas!

Anyhow, when I go to shopping malls, people are so busy of buying gifts for parties and other Christmas events since tons of big time discounts and freebies that are given away by business establishments. Here in the Philippines, it’s been part of the culture to buy gifts and share it to others most especially for our family.

Well, my most favorite part when shopping is the time we buy food and drinks for Christmas Eve. There are varieties of wine offers in the grocery (and also online wine merchants) as well as sumptuous foods that actually have huge discounts (almost half the price). Hopefully, on the 24th we don’t have work anymore so we can enjoy the holiday with our families.

Anyways, it’s not the beautiful decorations that really counts or the gifts that you received. It’s the bonding of each family member and their love for each other. It’s about love….love….love….

Today, I was checking my bank account and I realized that I have spend much last weekend and I don’t even think of having a spare of bucks for Christmas. My 13th month bonus was released last October and unluckily nothing left but very few cents. It’s quite sad that this coming Christmas and New Year I don’t have money to spend for our “Buena Noche”.
I was thinking if I could have a payday loan or Cash Advance Loans so I have few bucks on my pocket.
My goodness celebrating Christmas is really expensive like spending some more on buying gifts for kids (inaanak), my mom, “boyfie”, friends and to less fortunate people like this incoming December 11 we have a charity event here in Metro Manila. I’m not complaining, it’s just that I need some money in order to buy some stuffs to unfortunate kids.
Maybe I’ll try No fax payday loans so it would be easy and fast. Maybe you have other alternatives besides from depending only to loan, please feel free to email me or drop a comment here. I’m also planning to get my not so old clothes and will have a garage sale. You think it would work? Hmmm.. Darn I need more bucks this month! I hope I could get a sponsor for all my expenditures. But I guess no one would have a small penny to provide this time…Anyhow, I know God will provide my financial needs for he knows that these will be given to much deserving kids. There is a line in the Bible not sure with the exact sentence, but I know that when you share something, it will return a hundred fold. So maybe, I have to make a bit of sacrifice.
Advance merry Christmas and happy New Year to everyone!

If you missed me.. then I deserve a kiss..and even more than that.

When I started working I forgot to do some exercise. I don’t find time to go to the gym and burn the calories I’m taking in. In my line of work it’s much preferable to spend my spare time to rest and have enough sleep. I’m doing this routine for 2 years now, until one day I weigh in my self just to know how heavy I am. I was surprised that I am now 60 kilos! That’s too much huh! My clothes don’t fit me anymore. That makes me determined to have a healthy weight loss diet.

Well, it’s almost a month now that I have started my diet. I have told myself that I won’t eat too many carbohydrates. I have started eating oat meal and fruits. Now, I am 58 kilos and I lost 4.4 lbs! Well, according to the doctor I should do some exercise besides from eating healthy foods. I am planning to enroll for a fitness gym and I’ll do it twice a week. I hope this plan will be put into work. I’m afraid this will be another bad shot plan.

However, I’ll continue my healthy diet so I can have a good physical shape! Wish me luck guys…..

Dear  Bee,

I admit I have been very bad last week especially last Saturday. With so much remorse I felt I was tortured. My conscience almost killed me. The time I see you crying, I cried too. Why? That’s because I felt your pain. I know you’re not the “vocal” type, that’s why your silence makes me even more frightened. I’m scared of losing you.

I am so sorry for being immature. I’ve been self-centered. I only think of my happiness and I forget what you’ve been through. Drei is right I should’ve thought of “YOU” and not “US” for awhile. I’m so sorry.

Yesterday when you weren’t saying anything, and nothing but silence. It bothers me. You are physically present but your emotionally absent. If I remember it clearly, you woke up without a smile on your face (that it didn’t usually happen). It’s pretty weird. Yeah, you’re not feeling good. I understand. And I don’t have anything to do but be calm and quiet. It’s my fault and not yours.

Anyways, Thank you because you forgive me despite of what I’ve done. I promise I’ll make it up to you. Thanks for the warm hug despite of our arguments. I hope things will be better for you and your family. I’ll always be here for you. I love you….

Yesterday, I bought bunch of Wheat Bread from my friend and that would be my substitute for rice. I missed eating decent food so why not try wheat bread this time.

My colleague asked me why am I doing this. Well probably because I want to get back my old figure (not too thin and not too fat)…

After losing 2 kilos, it motivates me even more. I continue my oatmeal diet plus NO rice for the entire weekdays (well except weekends I can’t resist my mom’s adobo).

Today, I bought a sandwhich spread (tuna flavor) to compliment the bread and instead of coffee I bought C2 Envidia. My colleague who’s on a diet also referred this product since it’s ZERO calories and sugar (What do you think?). Oh such a happy meal! With 1 set of wheat bread I feel so full! Later I will weigh in again, hopefully I will lose some more weight! Wish me luck guys.