Peek On My Closet

Anything that I see, it reminds of you..of ‘us’ actually. It reminds me nothing but the good times we had. Those were the days that we were both in love and respect each other. I tried to erase these things in my head but it’s irreplaceable. You know these happy memories keep me going.

Well now that everything seems to be different I’m still here willing to save it. Save the relationship, and the good times we shared. Despite of your silence and pay no heed to my efforts I still want to keep this. It’s been hard for me to swallow my own pride but I did. I still have to keep holding it. Why? Because I still have something left to give. I still love you. It may sounds martyrdom, so what? Not unless you say it straight to my face that you give up. As long as you didn’t say you no longer want/need me in your life I’ll just be around.

I guess it’s true that in every relationship it’s not the period that counts but it’s the number of sweet memories you have. We’ve been through a lot already. A lot of fights actually but if you count those against the happiest moments of our lives together it’s handful.

But don’t ever forget that I also have my boundaries. For now, I know I can still fight it, I still have a lot to give but if you push the limits then maybe that’s the time I’ll end what I’m fighting for. Don’t wait the time that I’ll realize that this is not worth it. And lastly don’t ever stop thinking that love can be gone too.

Everyday is an ordinary day for you but for me…..it’s another day of agony… so UNFAIR

Last Friday I planned to book for a hotel reservation as a post birthday gift for myself. After office, I ran to Go Hotels to check in for an overnight stay. It’s a “loser” move because I’m all alone but who cares. No biggie.

Anyways,  just a quick review of the hotel. Their service is mainly for accommodation. They don’t have a pool, or a bar that any hotels have. They have rooms with and without windows that according to my colleague is not good. Well for me that’s fine as long as it’s clean and cozy. One thing that strike me is the “no smoking” policy. Well as you all know I’m a habitual smoker. Eating is also prohibited so you are obliged to eat outside.

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Two years ago, everything seems to be almost perfect…so magical…

I felt so pathetic when I run after you…I just realized that you’re not worth running for…

There is no such thing as “almost perfect” relationship if lovers do not accept their own imperfections. – Therefore I conclude that this relationship is not perfect.

I just learned that IF ever I’ll be single again, I’d be grateful….why because I can do whatever I want to, and I can go wherever my feet leads me to…

I’ll keep a distance for quite some time then lets see if you’ll see my worth…

When you yell out of me I feel disrespected and so ashamed that I just want to runaway and disappear. I’m a woman who understands a single sentence. You don’t have to repeat and shout over and over. You disgraced me in front of other people and most especially to my family. I know I owe you an apology because I caused your lunacy but you also owe me one when you have treated me that way.

I don’t deserve to be insulted and every time you’re one hell of a mad guy you seem to hurt me through and through. FYI: It’s countless already. Are you not aware that you have been very rude to me? Huh…

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