Peek On My Closet

With all the pain and qualms I’m going through these days I realize one thing. I should not worry about putting so much effort in our relationship like sending him “sweet” graphical quotes or even surprising him on our Anniversary. Why? Because it’s one way of reminding him that I still “exist” (That Hey! I’m your girlfriend).

Well maybe there are times that he might forget the sweet moments we had, so giving these kinds of efforts have nothing to worry about. And if time comes that he can find somebody else (knock on the wood) I won’t have regrets. At least I have given him all that I have. Love, Care, Understanding, Everything! Continue reading

After seeing the commercial of Nestle Fitnesse Cereals on tv I wonder if it really works. My mom says why don’t I try the product? Maybe it could help me lose some weight. Well admittedly I’m hesitant at first because I have tried a lot of slimming tea, pills, and other stuffs and it all didn’t worked. If it works something’s going on with my body like vomiting, sweating, etc.

So, to gain more motivation, I have shared this plan to my Leah and she also want to try it. We have decided that we will start this challenge on January 17, 2011 (Yesterday). So I bought three boxes with three different varieties, one is the original whole cereals, and the other one is the fitnesse cereals with fruits and lastly the one with almonds.

For breakfast: Nestle Fitnesse Cereals + Milk + cup of coffee
For lunch: Normal meal (Half rice + kare kare (vegetable) + chicken)
For dinner: Nestle Fitnesse Cereals (with fruits) + Milk

I haven’t bought fruits yet so I’m planning to buy banana later at 711.

Well, the challenge on Day 1 is that I have to control my self for craving other foods.
Honestly, the taste is quite good at first but when you try to continuously eat the cereals with the milk you’ll be unhappy with what you’re doing. I know that its part of dieting and it needs a lot of determination and patience.

So, Day 1 already started and I have over come the challenge which is “Cravings”. We’ll see in a couple of days if it’s really going to work.

(Pictures coming soon)

When I logged in to my computer this morning I realized that my desktop is such a mess. Files are everywhere! It does not even contain folders just to organize things. I know I’m not good into organizing stuffs and these cluttered files make my eyes so busy. Well, I really agree with one of the facts that if things appear to be higgledy-piggledy your mind also jumbled. Okay, so first step to be done this morning is to arrange all the files so the next time I log in my Desktop is clean and organized. Here’s how I will do it:

Step One: Create a categorize folder
Step Two: Label each of the files. Make sure that you labeled the files in an order manner so it won’t get confusing.
Step Three: Move them to the created folder

Since, I’m eager to do it as soon as possible I managed to sort the problem in 10 minutes. I guess my records management skills are not bad after all. Weeeeeeeee!

Look how clean it is right now!

P.S My drawer is also chaotic. Am I a bad employee? Yes, I know right! Whew! A lot of chores to be done today and if I’m going to arrange stuffs on my desk it’s gonna be half day.

Have a peek at my cluttered drawer!haha

To my dearest,

Thank you for the wonderful relationship you shared with me. I deeply appreciate those simple but meaningful things that you have done/doing. Spending weekends in my place is such a big effort for you. It sounds sacrificial because instead of enjoying your personal time you still prefer to enjoy it with me. And also the fact that our place is far away from you it’s pretty sacrificial.

Despite these beautiful things, there are times that you offensively upset me (in so many ways and times already). Well, that’s the fucking reality. There is no such perfect relationship or lovers. I hope there won’t come a time that the efforts will have a dead end. That you won’t get tired. I’m scared.

I know I’ve been very stupid of being too dependent on you throughout these years. Is that a bad thing? Just like the song “too much love will kill you”. Well I guess it is true. Too much of anything is bad. We’ll see how far this love will take us if it will be forever or not. We’ll see. (Fingers crossed)

Three days left and we are going to welcome year 2011! A New Year which I or every person prepares a lot of fresh and new things. I back tracked some experiences I had for year 2010 and I noticed that I have a lot of things to be changed and improved for 2011 whether for personal, work and other extra stuffs that I have been doing lately including Blogging.

I have been staring on my blog for like 2 minutes and I realize that I have been doing this for three years and yet the design are still copied from free Wordpress themes on the Web. So with this assumption I have decided to comprise my own WP theme as well as my own Logo. BUT monetary issues matters again! Well, it’s been three years that I don’t have a unique and personal theme and logo for my blog so maybe it’s time to change and upgrade a bit.

I’m thinking if I could create my own Logo using Corel or Adobe. Hmmmm Well, since time is my worst enemy, I badly need someone who can do it for me. I have been looking for Logo Design Tips in Google and there are lots of them! It’s making me a hard time searching and reading reviews if it’s good or not. Anyhow, there are still a couple of days or months to plan this thing. No biggie.

Aside from Blogging I have other stuffs that should be changed too. Please have a quick look on my new year’s resolution list:

Self
• Have a fresh look (new haircut, new style, etc)
• Have determination to go to the gym on weekends
• Quit/minimize Smoking (1-2 Cigs a day)

Work
• Become more proactive
• Think new ideas/strategies

Others
• Budget the salary
• Minimize use of Credit Card
• Pay bills on time

Christmas parties are over and my financial status is going back to normal (I suppose). December 16 was in Dusit Thani Hotel for the Classic Black & White Party (ENP), and then the following day at Nipa Hut for the HR Party. I have slept over at Leah’s place for 1 night and then been drinking the next night. It was fun and challenging because of my darn 3 inch heels! For the record, I wasn’t able to wear the dress I bought from eBay so the one you can see in the picture is different.

The ladies!

Anyways, parties are over so no more expenditure at the moment. Today, I received my leave conversions and it’s enough for groceries and bills. Yeah, speaking of bills, Credit Card bill just arrived yesterday and it’s driving me crazy! Huh I wish I could control my self in using it. Well, enough of my excruciating financial problems.

Now I just care about my Christmas vacation so I’m not in the mood to work hard today especially tomorrow. It’s 23rd and I’m on vacation leave, on 24th it’s Holiday so I have four days of rest. Isn’t it exciting?! Oh, boyfie is back so it’s to make some love! LOL Advance Merry Christmas to all!

I won a GC!

Kuya Glenn a.k.a Don Alejandro!

Today he called, but then I said I’ll call him later. And then when I called his colleague answered, “He won’t bother to talk to me”. I was wondering why, and then later on he handed the phone to “him”. He was cold. It’s like Q&A. One question one answer. No more discussions or sweet nothings. I said “I love you” he said nothing… I told him I missed him, silence is his answer. It’s pretty obvious that he’s up to something but I don’t know what the heck it is. I left a YM message for him and asked him again and he said very shortly “Ok lang honey ko”. I know there’s an endearment to it but I can feel it. I’m not sure if I just being paranoid but I know there is something…. Something that I could afraid of. I have these thoughts in my head, but as much as possible I should NOT entertain them. I know he’s into crucial stage wherein he’s coping up with what happened to his family, and so I can’t do anything but just go with the flow and confer the best support I could give.

Hopefully, things will be better for us…for both of us..

After seeing the news this morning about the Vizconde Massacre case against Hubert Webb I realize that Justice in the Philippines is dreadful. It’s getting worse and only a miracle could change this kind of system.

The issue is not about the release of the accused neither the loss of Lauro Vizconde but is about the grimy Government system. If Webb found to be NOT guilty of the crime and who’s responsible for the massacre?

We know that our country has been proven Corrupt but not to the point that people can no longer trust the Government officials/agencies such as Philippine National Police, etc.. If this how the dirty the scheme plays can you imagine how many people being imprisoned that has been found or “alleged” guilty well in fact they’re innocent of the accuse?

I’m not pretty sure though but what if these officials in the Government making up stories and framed people just to show to the public that they have solved the case?!

It’s really true that money can buy everything (ANYTHING!! Including conscience and dignity). It’s the wealth that evolves the world especially in this country. For this aspect, sometimes I feel ashamed that I’m part of this atrocious government. Justice in this country is useless without money and power. Well, God is still there watching us and time will come that the evil ones will be punished.

Simplicity in some ways can at times blunt and not so appealing (in my own opinion) depending on the way a woman carries the ‘simplicity’ in her that she may look like gorgeous or hideous in the eyes of the people around her. But as for me, sometimes being too plain and straightforward can be boring.

I was raised in an environment where wearing fashionable clothes, setting make up and having lots of hairstyles does not exist. Tee and jeans are my always getaway wardrobe plus the never ending tied hair with a ponytail which becomes my trademark. Since then, I used to do the usual routine until such time that I have my hair re-bonded (straightened) and had a stylish haircut. To cut the story short, I changed a bit on my fashion style. I become more smart and yet simple looking. I learned to put on face powder, lip gloss and a bit of blush on if there’s a special event. As well as changed how I dress up. I did not transform into a very fashionable look because there is always simplicity inside of me. (Perhaps that’s the reason why my boyfriend gets attracted to me. Charing!)

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I don’t know what’s wrong with me today. It’s just that 6 hours of nap is not enough to catch up a lot of stress at work. Since we are preparing for Friday’s event (HR Christmas Party) we have to go home late so we can practice on our presentation. Around 7PM I left office and while at the FX I felt really tired and sleepy as well, but then I managed to be awake until I got home. And so after 3 hours of travel, that was around 10PM, ate dinner and then slept for like 5-6 hours. The loud alarm clock woke me up at 4AM and it felt bad because my body seems to have more rest and I “HAVE” to get up and get ready for work today. Huh! I’m really tired! Living in Manila is harder than I thought.

Since I’m not in the mood to mingle today, I prefer to stay in my workstation and face my computer the whole day. But unfortunately, staying in front of my PC in such a long time make me crazy! I’m sleepy, and over stressed. My introvert side conquers me and I don’t know if I could overcome that now. I thought a sip of warm coffee (or a shot of espresso) and lighting a cig might have helped me BUT unfortunately, I still have this bad feeling. I don’t know how to explain how bad it is but I just want to know what and how can I make this a beautiful day.

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