Peek On My Closet

I’ll keep a distance for quite some time then lets see if you’ll see my worth…

With all the pain and qualms I’m going through these days I realize one thing. I should not worry about putting so much effort in our relationship like sending him “sweet” graphical quotes or even surprising him on our Anniversary. Why? Because it’s one way of reminding him that I still “exist” (That Hey! I’m your girlfriend).

Well maybe there are times that he might forget the sweet moments we had, so giving these kinds of efforts have nothing to worry about. And if time comes that he can find somebody else (knock on the wood) I won’t have regrets. At least I have given him all that I have. Love, Care, Understanding, Everything! Continue reading

To my dearest,

Thank you for the wonderful relationship you shared with me. I deeply appreciate those simple but meaningful things that you have done/doing. Spending weekends in my place is such a big effort for you. It sounds sacrificial because instead of enjoying your personal time you still prefer to enjoy it with me. And also the fact that our place is far away from you it’s pretty sacrificial.

Despite these beautiful things, there are times that you offensively upset me (in so many ways and times already). Well, that’s the fucking reality. There is no such perfect relationship or lovers. I hope there won’t come a time that the efforts will have a dead end. That you won’t get tired. I’m scared.

I know I’ve been very stupid of being too dependent on you throughout these years. Is that a bad thing? Just like the song “too much love will kill you”. Well I guess it is true. Too much of anything is bad. We’ll see how far this love will take us if it will be forever or not. We’ll see. (Fingers crossed)

In some relationships, women sometimes fail to remember their worth. Most especially when she gave up everything that nothing left but love for her hubby/boyfie. I think the only reason why a woman gave up everything for her man is simply because she loves him. Yeah, she loves him more than enough not to love her own self. Pathetic but true.

At times, some women also stop thinking about what’s good for them but rather thinking on their partner’s happiness. Always focuses her time and attention to him. Obviously, it’s a “pathetic-obsessive” attitude. I called it as “pathetic-obsessive” because it’s so depressing that SOME women are pathetically obsessed!

Women like us sometimes observe less especially when we’re blinded by the so called “love”. We are not even aware that boys have power over us. Can you imagine that? If your man knows how weak you are, he will “intentionally or unintentionally” overpower you. As I’ve mentioned earlier, MOST women are “pathetic-obsessive”. So, women might give up everything they have, because they are crazy in love with their man.

That’s an attitude where ladies should hide from men. Always keep a secret for your self. Don’t let him know your weaknesses. Or else, he might use this against you. You are weak inside, but you have to be strong outside. Remember to take control of your feelings. Don’t show too many emotions. Be firm yet sweet. Finally, take control of your man. Don’t be too aggressive on him. Be effortless yet loving.

“Lucky is a woman who can find her one true love. Nevertheless, doomed is a woman who can find a fake love“

No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected what you did to my heart
When I lost hope you were there to remind me
This is the start

The saying “Patience is a virtue” is always right. We shouldn’t rush in looking for someone who will love us. We just have to wait for the right person to come. Every girl is dreaming of a prince charming, a soul mate, and a perfect man. Just like what I did when I was a little girl. I’ve always been imagining who could that be, what would he look like, what could be the perfect moment. I always have been in a hurry to meet him. I’ve been to several relationships but then it turned out to be a failure. That made me realize that we can’t get what we want in an instant. If we’re looking for a right relationship, and for a right man, we just have to sit back, relax, and be ready to be a better person to him. There are things that meant to happen. If you’ve been to failed relationships, don’t give up! Each and every one of us has our own destiny. Just be PATIENT enough to wait for the right person. If you know you’ve already met him, then spend the most loving days of your life with him. Don’t let him slip away in your arms. Be the queen of his castle!

Think of possible causes and the main root of a break up. Would it be a fight, argument, or one of you just fall out of love. Stop and think for awhile. I know you’re in a mourning stage, but you can’t just let your feelings conquer your mind. If you realized that the relationship must have to end, then the best way is to “let go”. Yeah, it’s really hard to do it BUT you always have a choice. There’s always been a bunch of ways to get over a failed relationship. If the break up is unexpected then probably you’re still in “denial stage”. Just accept the fact that it’s finally over. Acceptance can make you feel better. If you feel like crying, then go ahead. Don’t cover up your emotions, just cry to let go of the pain. If you’re a guy, it may not make less of your masculinity if you cry. Yeah, it’s really painful to lose someone who had been part of your life, but just think of the positive part, there’s always a sun that shines after the rain. Think of the negative traits of your ex. What are the things that you dislike about him/her? The things that might turned you off. Don’t ever ever reminisce the romantic moments you’ve had if you’re still on a mourning stage. Always keep a distance with your ex.